The Three B's

This week has been an excellent week. Firstly we decided that we are going to start trying for a baby next year as soon as we have got married and perhaps start the necessary testing beforehand in April as we are planning to do egg sharing ivf, if T is accepted on to the program. If not, financially we will have to try IUI instead. T is definitely hopefully going to carry the first baby, as she is 3 years older. I am happy to wait my turn :) It is very exciting. Life is too short and I want as much time with our children as possible, as working in a hospice has really showed me how you never know what is round the corner and how family are the thing that matters most in this life and are the one thing that are with us until the end of time. Not how many bedrooms our house has. I shared a bedroom with either my sister and at times my brother and sister until I was 11 and I had the best childhood ever. We also lived in a caravan in my grandparents backyard until I was 7. We will be living in a lovely 2 bed by the time our baby is old enough to care anyway. For the first year until we leave London and try for baby number 2, he can bunk up in our room :D

We also have booked our honeymoon, which is awesome as we have spent weeks trying to figure out where to go and how much money to spend etc. Our ideas varied from an all inclusive 2 weeks in mexico to a caravan in Cornwall. We really want to keep costs down so we can afford the IVF! In the end we have opted for a middle ground and are hiring a villa on the coast in Sardinia and hiring a car to drive around the Island. It looks gorgeous. The beaches are white and the sea is crystal clear. It is costing us £950 for the villa, flights and hire car. Pretty reasonable really as it has a jacuzzi overlooking the sea and everything and it is also private so we will be able to relax better.

Going for a week also means we can fit in going to the fertility clinic and a couple of nights in Paris in to our 2 weeks annual leave. We are not taking more time off to allow for baby making days off. While we would love to get pregnant on our first go, we are being realistic and anticipating more of a journey.

The three b's have also thus commenced this week. BRIDAL. BEACH. BABY diet! We are on a definite health kick now so that we are in optimum shape to give ourselves the best chance. We have swapped cake for fruit and the sofa for long walks. We r also gonna start playing tennis and swimming :) I am pretty sure cake will worm itself in occasionally, but so long as we keep focused then I am sure we will get there. Damn BMI charts. We went on a lovely 4 mile round trip walk into Greenwich last night and rewarded ourselves with a starbucks when we got there :) It is well worth the walk for both the coffee and the amazing view of Canary Wharf

Lastly I am starting my new job on Monday. This is quite terrifying but also very exciting. Gone are my student days. I am so glad to be in the adult world now even if I lose my student discount :)

I AM GONNA BE A TOTAL BREAD WINNER

This is what I am looking at whenever I want chocolate (mmmm)

I can't wait x x x

The other side.

I am not really one to discuss my feelings, or show them, but H managed to crash through all my defences and actually open up about my feelings and my future plans. She has been nothing but wholeheartedly supportive in every decision I have made and I'm incredibly grateful to have her in my life.

Meeting her was actually the best decision ever. We met briefly on a dating website, I say brief, it was within 24 hours and we had already decided to meet in person. I guess something made us gravitate towards each other constantly. And now I can't really imagine ever being apart. 

I may not be the the typical girl in planning weddings but i am so excited about the day I get to call her my wife. Scary, exciting, can't actually wait. 
   
There are so many things that I want for our life, and its amazing how I've found someone who feels the same. <3 
  
T
  

Shitty looking blog

T thinks our blog looks lame. How dare she. I spent a good 5 minutes on the template. She is a techno geek so is going to revamp it at some point. I look forwards to seeing the pimping. I am not sure if I lack the skill or the arsedness. Probably both. I am sure I could master the art though. I am soooo excited that it is October. I love Autumn. I love the colours. I love walking along the Thames with coats and gloves with coffee. I love Halloween, bonfire day and awaiting December so we can put up decorations and wander around Christmas markets and winter wonderland at Hyde park. I also can't wait to see the Snowman at the theatre and go to the carol service at St Paul. Bring on Autumn and Winter. I also love cuddling up on the sofa with a good book and hearty food. Mmmmm.

Sperm Envy

I WISH I HAD SPERM. Though T told me that if I did they would be amazing sperm. Some consolation to my inept reproductive system. Who decided that two eggs don't make a baby are FOOLS. It is going to cost us thousands to conceive in some lab. This thought bums me out sometimes. But our lab rat is going be beautiful someday.

Dresses...TWO OF THEM

Ok so I shouldn't blog while in either a rush or half way through a 12.5 hour night shift. Right now I am starving and watching Nigela which also isn't a good combo. Our Iceland value fish fingers are in the oven though.... (currently awaiting pay day). Apologies for any typos as currently using my touch screen mobile and it is prone to ridiculous auto corrects. I keep having dreams about wedding dresses. The last one was the week before the wedding and neither me or T had found a dress. The dream ended with me finding one at a charity shop in Hogwarts. I have spent months occassionally browsing wedding dress websites and I have yet to find my oneeee. It is bloody hard trying to find dresses. We went through a phase of thinking we will wear contrasting coloured dresses but then we tried an ivory dress on (in Debenhams cos we were not brave enough to head in to pretentious intimidating looking bridal shops and I don't want to fall in love with some trillion pound number) and yes we both really actually suited ivory and while I am anxious about 2 ivory dresses screaming lesbians and looking daft (irrational as I am out and proud and have seen lots of beautiful lesbian wedding photos that look beautiful with both brides in ivory) and I think T would love nothing better than attracting as little attention as possible, we have decided to screw all our fears and just look like brides :D We are going for either second hand dresses or at least I am. T has already found one she wants and it is pretty reasonably priced brand new. She knows exactly what style she wants though (50s tea dress swing style). I on other hand change my mind constantly. We are going to see each others dresses on hanger but not on. I just know that T is going to look beautiful no matter what she wears x

Wedding planning...

So far I have found planning our wedding relatively easy really in so far as on the large part me and T share similar tastes so deciding on most things has been a breeze and are able to negotiate compromises pretty easily once we had decided on our priorities for the day. Neither of us want to spend thousands of pounds but equally we want to have a lovely special day. In the beginning stage when we had just got engaged, my brain went in to wedding over drive. I wanted 70 guests and the whole shebam and looked at country hotels with pretty gardens and we found a beautiful place with a great deal cliche package for October 2013. But then I sat down to really think about it and realised firstly that I didn't want to spend that amount of money and that no part of the package reflected me and T nor represented our life and lastly that I didn't want to wait until October. We have set a budget of £3000 and are gonna DIY the hell out of it. We are hiring a cute venue by the Thames (which is very symbolic for us as we have spent many a date by the Thames and I am a sucker for a good view) and we are having Afternoon tea rather than a traditional wedding breakfast (mmmmmm)... To be continued as my break has just finished.....

THE ULTIMATE DATE!

Ok so this is it...the day I officially become a proper blogger! (aside from the post I did back in March when I was definitely gonna become a proper blogger)

It is gonna be a pretty rubbish post because I technically should be getting ready to leave the flat now to go to a Joshua Radin gig <3. Me and T have officially set a date for our wedding and booked the venue. I plan to blog my little heart out about it...and about the rest of our life.

Our Civil Partnership is all booked for 28th May 2013! 244 days away :D:D

Eeeeeeeee well more information to follow when I get chance (because T will read this later and discover the reason why I was inevitably late to meet her)

xxxxxx